My thoughts… help… :(
i have been doing really good for well over a month, my eating disorder has gotten better i am not “cured” but i have made so many strides forward. but today i feel like total shit and like a failure… like everything i have done and everything i do is meaningless and there is no point to even try to regain my life… i want to crawl into a ball and become a hermet.
i can feel my eating disorder coming back tenfold and worse than ever…. i feel like the little weight that i gained over the past month will be lost and even more will be lost after that, and fast via restriction… i dont know what to do or who to talk to right now…
sorry for the rant… well i guess i do kinda have a lot more to say but idk if anyone even reads the shit i post or cares (lol) so i am just going to leave it at this.. i hope everyone is doing well and i love you all so so much! xoxo
